I showed them my tattoo

I showed them my tattoo

My inky scar

The one that even my husband

Was not privilege to

I showed them my tattoo

The stain on my character

That dirty mark on my soul

The evil touch

And they left me!

I showed them my tattoo

I showed them my heart

I let them in out of desperation

I needed help so badly

So very badly

Hoping to prove my fear of rejection wrong

Hoping that my fears were unjustified

Moments of desperation

And poor judgement

Have led me here to rot

In my numbness

Sadness deeper than plunge pools

Fills my empty soul

My tightening throat

And it feels good

Because I can feel more now

A sense of injustice

A target of my anger

A welcome betrayal

Hurt me again.

I know who to blame now

And it’s not myself

This is not my fault

This is not Gods fault

This is the fault of mankind.

The fault of my enemies

The ones who judge me